Scarlet

how you treated us. how you look at us. how you make us feel.

somehow it connects to everyone. your funeral will me a memorial moment.

she gave me shock of my life. Nsxon and Sting might be thinking the same as me that time.

Marcelle! don`t ever make that kind of wall post anymore!! I kill you! 

. . . . .

I`m sorry for holding a grudge against you. I really hope that I can wind back the clock, days, weeks, months, years. . . .

I can feel your sadness Mom. I know your deeply sad. Please be strong and I`m so so so so sorry I can`t give you a warm hug for I`m fucking far from you.

I will share those burdens in a pitch black room.

It`s hard to believe that you are no longer here. Be strong aunt and cousins. We will always pray for the one you love most.

I can feel your sadness. Let`s toughen up our hearts and smile for the coming days.

Dressing Black tomorrow. . . .

restinpeace. . . .

sounds

move one more step like you can`t hear the waving sounds is coming near. sounds of footsteps seems to be the only sound you can hear to follow. making your own sounds more like a crashing sounds. a rock crumble from mountain to the ground. by shouting moves you. whispering will teach you in better way. peanut, butter or jelly? you walk a path that fill with echo and it was pitch black. am i dreaming? or its just that i can`t open my eyes? the light are deceiving me for it has betrayed me. but how can i walk straight if i can`t even see the road. while your talking, there will be another sounds that will repeat it. measuring the power between aliens and god. such a big issued that can make someone stuck in a room just to discover what was once covered and will always be cover. when will it shows? or will it always be pass day by day. you talk, i talk, its not a promise but we kept silence. if it sounds nice, why not keep it to yourself. why does this all sounds so mix up? maybe cause i can`t sleep and i`m up when it`s so late at night. if this is how i`m thinking. i`m not going anywhere. books don`t talk, we talk for it. that sounds quite right. . .

itallrelatestothesounds. . . .

the beating

No matter how many times did you told me you wanted to leave

No matter how many breaths that I took I still couldn't breath
No matter how many nights did you lied
I'd wait to the sounds of pausing rain
Where did you go?
(Heart beat, a heart beat, i need a heart beat...)

Tell me would you kill to save your life?
Tell me would you kill to prove you're right?
Crash, crash, burn let it all burn

I`ve got kill and I didn`t save any life
This sorry can't change things, I so long to cry
(This hurricane's chasing us all underground)

No matter how many deaths I die, I will never forget
No matter how many lies I live, I will never regret
There's a fire inside,
Of this heart,
About to explode into flames
Where is your God...?

Do you really want me dear?
(A heart beat, a heart beat, I need a heart beat...
You know I gotta leave, I can't stay, I know I gotta go, I can't stay)


You say I`m wrong, I`m wrong, your right, your right, I`m wrong, we fight
Ok, I'm running from the light, running from the day to night
Oh, the quiet silence defines our misery
The riot inside keeps trying to visit me
No matter how we try, it's too much history
Too many bad notes playing in our symphony
So let it breathe, let it fly, let it go
Let it fall, let it crash, burn slow
And then we call upon God


where`sourgod?

whatwouldyouwishfor? sowhichwayareyougoing?

must not let go of the opportunity that freshen up your mind to realize what you`ve heard and saw in "the bright moving picture screen" (television). how disaster made a difference towards human perception. what if we encounter the worsts situation ever? will it be a new chapter in our history textbooks? all the beautiful creation, design, nature and avenue will all be ruin. once a memory and turn to be a centenary. could you imagine that? let`s climb up on a wishing stairs and make a wish.

whatwouldyouwishfor?

when people want to merge for a new alternative, don`t ever stop, keep on finding methods that toughens your body, spirit and heart or you`ll be carried or drag into misery. shout, scream or talk. hold your breath and call it a day and get ready for another day. keep on trying again and again until you gain something in return to replace your misery days that`s so called studying.

inspired by others. envy, angry and etc. don`t feel it, for it will not change a thing. what matters the most is how you lead yourself. be captivated.

sowhichwayareyougoing?

Explain to me

Please speak softly 

or they will hear us
and they'll find out
why we don't trust them
Speak up dear
'cause I cannot hear you
I need to know
why we don't trust them

Explain to me
this conspiracy against me,
And tell me how
I lost my power,

Where can I turn
'cause I need something more
Surrounded by uncertianty
I'm so unsure of...
Tell me why I feel so alone
'cause I need to know
to whom do I owe


I thought
you would make it
because you said
that we'd make it through
And when all security fails
you'd be there
to help me through


by, paramore

side dishes

how we decide which drama to watch is the hardest part.

its like once you start watching this, then you start to change watching that, we`ve just miss one episode on the other one ( no repeat show). 

face face face the damn book! study that and you`ve miss that,

study this and you miss this. 

ooo, how i wish i could split the time for eating, sleeping and slower it down,

 cause people are feeling down lately.  

troublesome. . . .

eat the side dishes, look at the bright side.

we can only can be educated by facing the real book.

grrrr~ . live it.

wearetakingthehighway . . . .

i think i damage my brain

strongly insane for a moment. . . .how you mentally present in your situation compared to others. things are not so bright as it seems but it does not mean that its pitch black. keep your mind strong, positive and there`s always friends to help us out. here or there, they are all the same.

cracking up some methods to motivated yourself more and more and do not stop if you think you have reach the end. there`s still more to find in our set of mind and surroundings. explore more and into the core.

i will open up my ears, strengthen up my hand, smile at a picture and take a picture if i got the time. a few drop of blood will not kill me.

ithinkimgoingcrazy. . . .